Newton’s Third Law
it was a very unproductive day.. i have a fever and i felt like my whole body’s going to fall apart.. but it gave me a lot of time to think things through..
i finally sent that one friend request to him in facebook.. i have been contemplating about it for a few weeks now.. and i told myself to dive in and just go for it..
he’s probably mad right now.. i don’t know, really.. i don’t really know what to expect from him.. he might not approve it.. but it’s okay if he don’t.. at least, i’ll know where i really stand.. if he does.. then that’s another thing to consider..
you see, i’m really the problem here.. it’s me.. after hearing Ehmz’s story about the breakup with her fiancee.. i couldn’t help but just run away.. ok.. i know i’m a coward (don’t rub it in) and nobody deserves to be treated like that.. but.. i’m just scared.. i’m falling for him, you know?
i told myself a billion times not to fall for him ‘cause i very well know that he’s a player.. but wait, i might even be the cause of it after what i’ve done to him the past year.. or maybe he’s not really a player.. it’s just, he’s giving me the treatment that i deserve after doing such horrible things to him..
one thing i can proudly say though is that.. i never lied.. or did i?.. is not telling everything a form of lie too? hmmmm… maybe i did lie.. i’m a liar.. and i should go to hell.. with him.. or maybe not.. ahhhhhhh..
i don’t know anymore.. i’m sick.. literally and emotionally..
let’s just see what will happen the next few days.. i hope to bring you good news by then..
xx
“To every action there is always an equal and opposite reaction: or the forces of two bodies on each other are always equal and are directed in opposite directions.”
we are always pulling away from each other.. maybe because we think so much alike.. nobody wants to give in.. nobody wants to sacrifice.. and none of us is willing to compromise.. we take calculated risk, sometimes.. it’s too calculated.. and that my friend is the very reason why we can’t work things out.. we always think of who loves more.. and frankly, neither one of us wants to claim it.. and it’s kinda sad.. you’ve grown on me and i probably grown on you too.. i don’t know..
what happened? i used to be so good at reading people..
